Trigger warning. Read with care.
We’re coming to the end of mental health awareness week and I couldn’t pass up the chance to chat about it. I feel like mental health is becoming a much more common topic to discuss, but there’s still that element of shock when someone admits their struggles. SO…
Hi, my name is Emma and I suffer from anxiety and depression – which stemmed from my phobia of judgement. I’ve been on this wild journey since I was really young but it got noticeably worse once I reached my teens.
I’ve dealt with a lot of emotions from the lowest lows to the highest highs, and my coping mechanisms have been somewhat questionable. Over the last year, I’ve been working really hard to get myself to a much more peaceful place, through therapy and surrounding myself with people who lift me up.
I’ve had a lot of issues regarding myself throughout the years: thinking I was fat, restricting and then bingeing, making myself sick, I self harmed, I shut people out, I forever was telling myself I wasn’t worthy of anything.
I decided I wanted to be healthy and I wanted to be happy. I wanted to be worthy because that’s exactly what I am: worthy. Worthy of food, worthy of the clothes I want to wear (I’m still working on this), worthy of love and respect. I’m worthy of my desired career and my wildest ideas. I’m worthy of my goals and bucket lists. I’m worthy of everything that I want in life.
And so are you.
No one is immune to mental health.
Not everyone suffers from mental illness, but everyone has mental health. It should be talked about.
You wouldn’t judge me for crying because I’m sick, so why would you judge me for crying because I’m anxious?
You would sign my cast if I broke my arm so why wouldn’t you send me your love if I was suffering from depression?
You would support me through my nerves of an exam so why wouldn’t you support me with my nerves with it comes to food and my body?
You could understand my fear of talking to thousands of people, so why can’t you understand my fear of enclosed and crowded places?
You understand the need to be liked, so why do you not show empathy towards my fear of being alone?
You understand grief of a lost loved one so why can you not understand the feeling of losing yourself?
How scary the feeling of drowning is, in a place where there is no water.
Please always remember that kindness is free and one of the most beautiful acts there is.
Have boundaries, have people you trust, have healthy coping mechanisms, the chance to better your mind and build yourself up.
Stay safe everyone, much love x
If you are struggling please find some contact details below.
Samaritans – firstname.lastname@example.org or 116 123
Mind – 0300 123 3393
Rethink – email@example.com or 0300 5000 927
B-eat – 0808 801 0677
Or please search online for many more support lines both online and through the phone.
Never suffer on your own.